flutting up the wrong hole

jesus christ that is a scary embarrasing word in my life.i asked melany if she had $700 could she trust her friend ashley not to let mel touch it and trust her to hold onto it for however long.and she said no.how could i answer that even with the fucked philosophy of people nowadays.could i trust any friends or family or  anybody i associate with.uhhhhh.i can't exactly trust anybody i know in maryland.especially the marley creek associates.last night i went out with van and he said he was going to henny macks to celebrate the fact that the guy who stole $ 900+ worth of change i was saving is back from iraq and i went to remind the thief of what he did and everybody that was there.dogging everybody asking why are you guys meeting here to welcome a thief back.the thief heard all my ranting and said to me cant we just bury the hatchet i said give me 900 dollars and i still wouldn't forgive you.i can't fathom why the fact that all my other acquaintances even associate with a thief.if anybody stole money from any of my other friends i wouldn't even associate with the thief.that sorta means to me that i can't even trust people in maryland.

i have a 4 month old yorkie named rudy that has fuckin shitting problem and mel knows my take on his shitting.well, i woke up this morning i found 4 piles of shit on the floor.so that means she was so busy doing her zwinky shit that she forgot about putting rudy out.i can't even trust her to do 1 thing and put rudy outside to shit.she rather be on the computer and act like a zwinky fuck.all this non trust makes me sick to my stomach.it reminds me to be a hermit and be down south around people i could trust.and that's sad to say.i have family here.do i only have trusting friends in south carolina.i'm starting to think that.